But they’ve got to understand every move they make immediately affects me.
My eyes hurt because I’m so tired…
And this morning when I grabbed my socks I accidently grabbed one of mine and one of maras..
So today is gonna be one of those
I haven’t even gone inside the building yet. I haven’t even started working and I already just want my day to be over.
I really don’t want to work today.
i can’t be the only one who sees the “Ynot” commercials, or whatever, for smoking and gets so irritated I just want to do the exact opposite of what theyre saying.
like the “DON’T TAKE SMOKING SELFIES” bullshit.
excuse me while I go light up and then take a picture…
When your heart hurts as if its sad and its telling you something is about to happen, but you don’t know what and it (obviously) can’t tell you. You just have this sense of doom/sadness hanging over your head and you can’t shake it, or talk yourself out of it.
Nothing has happened yet.
Something might not even happen later.
I just hate this feeling.
Is when you don’t really want it, but you know you need it.
When you get it at the worst possible time and it just piles onto everything else you have weighing you down.
When it breaks through the pleasant numb you’ve thrown yourself into because, hey, that’s just your natural coping mechanism. Then, you hate the closure because you just can’t seem to throw yourself back into it.
I needed it
But I didn’t want it.
I wanted to live in my own delusion just a little longer, just until something got a little better.
It just leaves a bitter taste in my mouth now.
3. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
I personally prefer boys, since I grew up with a lot of boys I consider to be like brothers. I just mesh better with them.
6. How do you look right now?
Like shit :D
18. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect?
Yeah, it happened pretty recently haha. Oh well, c’est la vie.
35. Did you dream last night?
I did, I just don’t remember it now. It must have been really good because I really didn’t want to wake this morning.
42. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
No, not at all. Some aspects are better then before, some are worse. I’m just trying to work through some things.